As I see how far we've come over the last six to seven years, I see how we've grown up, i look at our memories: the times we shared, the food fights, the tears. Yet, now i look at who we are today, and i can see how far we've come. I've grown up in my heart and mind while u have become a woman yet i still feel a child. I wonder if i will ever grow up, or more or less if my earthly appearance or my body will ever catch up to my runaway mind. Which has progressed beyond the normal teenage spectrum. Sometimes i worry that shae and i will never be on the same level, but we will one day. I always say she is stronger than me, because in all truth, she is. She doesn't see it, but most people who have gone through the same things as her would have keeled over and rebelled ten times more than her. I wonder if im strong then i think that im not, for in truth, i have gone through tought times but i feel as if i was not strong through those times...but then again maybe i was. I never rebelled, i never got drunk in spite of my life, or turned to drugs to relax or take away my pain...i turned to my soul to my god...maybe that's what true stregnth is...maybe its even where humility lies...idk...but sometimes i wish i wasn't cursed with my understanding....or that i am glad to be blessed with the gift of it. i suppose understanding IS the ying and yang, for without it there is no enlightenment, but with it there is true pain.